Yes, my last post was in June or July. I simply lost steam again. After having a brief moment this spring where I felt creative and inspired, I fell flat again. My life seemed to be consumed by my pregnancy both physically and mentally. As much as I was thinking about the little human growing in my belly, I simply didn't want to bring it to my blog. I wanted this space to be creative and less about me and more about my art. Funny how I tried to separate me from my art, can that even be done? Not really. So here it is, my life and my art all wrapped up in one.
On September 16th, at 6:50 pm Jack Walker Pedde, the little man that was inside only moments before, lay on my chest looking at me with sleepy, calm eyes. We already knew each other. I knew his sleep schedule. I knew that he liked to sit with his long legs straight out at a 90 degree angle. I even knew what music made him dance around. He knew things about me that I'll never know, the sound of my heart, what I'm like from the inside. Most importantly he knew my voice and as he lay on my chest, his pale body against my flushed skin, my voice was just about the only thing he recognized.
Needless to say, my world has been completely different since that point. So far I still feel like I'm exploring a new, exciting country and haven't started to miss the things I've left behind--and maybe I never will. One thing I'm determined to carry forward is art, whether its photography, writing or any other type of creative process. It just too important for my sanity.
Before Jack, I promised to take one photograph a day for the next year. It seemed easy enough. Well I've probably done this but most of the images are of a sleeping baby or a flash startled baby...not super exciting to the outside world. I will do my best to share the ones that are more creative and less, "mom in awe" but I'll have to throw some of those in there every once in awhile.
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| Waiting. Jack was five long days late. It seems like nothing now but they were the longest five days I've ever experienced. |
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Morning. 1 week old
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| napping. 10 days old |
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Oh Page, thank you thank you thank you for bringing your beautiful thoughts and images to us! It's so exciting to read your voice again. I think all of us have been waiting with baited breath for Page's new world. Thanks so much for sharing!
ReplyDeleteDitto to Marcy's words. You have poignantly expressed those first weeks of having a new baby, a new life to live. I love the idea of Jack knowing you in ways you will never know - from the inside. What a beautiful picture that brought to mind.
ReplyDeleteAnd I love the images of Jack and Will with very sleepy eyes. They look so peaceful, despite the minimal sleep. Jack looks as though he knows and understands the world already. You have brought him loads of comfort.
Thank you ladies. I'm loving this new little world and will do my best to keep sharing.
ReplyDeleteOh my... such moving words and photographs. thanks Page for sharing your new world with new love...I agree with Sus, the melody of your words about what little Jack hears inside you was beautiful.
ReplyDeletei just can not turn off the water works. My heart is still so full of awe. Listening to Will talk about you and Jack was the most beautiful thing I had heard in years. Reading your thoughts and seeing a few things you see, I feel like I have a more well-rounded vision. Thanks for sharing lady face.
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